Manage your Manila, then You Will Be at Peace

5 more days until im back to Butler!! Words can't even describe how excited I am! I don't even know what to expect how this year is going to go. It's like I know how life is there but it is still foreign of all the newness this year is bringing! Like living in my sorority house! Oh well, I guess im just going to have to take this unknown anticipation one day at a time this week. Packing is actually going pretty well, suprisingly. I think it has to do with leaving most of my stuff there and then thinking "woah this is going to be intense" as I looked at the piles of clothes in my room this past weekend. So im literally just packing on what I actually need. Im flying anyways so I can't even bring everything I want. But thats all right, thats what sisters are for right?! Hah

Anyways, there are lots of things to cover before I go back to school that I need my family for, in which that is why, it has to be before I go to school. Like my loans and bank stuff. I think after this process is over, if i ever hear the words loan, chase bank, or wow your going to be in so much debt after college, I will shoot myself!! And of course having divorced parents makes it ten times worse especially trying to communicate with both resolving one problem at a time. So many beige folders in my face -im suprised I haven't even touched them with pink sharpie's yet! But it's a good thing that I know everything and what is going on, how much Im going to have to pay when I get out of college and etc. Im also changing banks after I found out that my whole family has too -great thanks for telling me guys! And then getting overdrafted and having delay transactions constantly. Oh goodness

So yesterday my stepdad and I went to the new bank and got everything re-organized and such, so hopefully this account will be in tip-top shape before school starts. Afterwards we went to starbucks and talked about the bank stuff, loans, and just life in general. It was great bonding time since we hardly ever get to. He talked about his work or well said as much as he is allowed too, which lasted about 5 min haha. My stepdad works for the government -that's all I know. As a matter of fact, thats all anyone knows who doesn't work with him, including my mom. Growing up, of course, living around here, a lot of my friends parents had these types of jobs as well and when they said they weren't sure what their parents did, they really didn't know ahaa. He left for a business trip last week and I offered to take him to the airport but we weren't even allowed to know what airport he was flying out of! Crazy stuff. Anways, sitting outside at the starbucks on that very rainy day (just missing the huge storm that hit here) while Billie Holiday playing in the background was very relaxing and comforting. I love these moments where you have a big event going on in your life and you are just waiting for it to happen. Like right now as im pretty much almost packed already, there's nothing left to do but to relax and enjoy your company and what your life is of right now. Kind of like performance season. My favorite time of dancing is the week before the shows. Everyone is together at most during this time, there is so much energy and its so exciting. And you are ready -you are just waiting for it to happen. Although this is weird because sometimes I absolutely hate waiting -actually everytime that doesn't have to do with "the week before"...something i hate so much.

This summer was really eye-opening. It's a bit complicating to explain but making all of these projects and artwork just made myself more myself -if that makes sense. Im here now sitting with my grandparents on this very humid night, absolutely doing nothing. They are both reading the Chinese newspaper and we are eating watermelon . this is the life...